Monday, January 02, 2006 / 11:36 PM
Suddenly,i jz haf tis weirdly empty feelin...i dun reali like my life the way it is...wateva is happenin btwn mi frens...wateva is happenin wit guys ard me...driftin apart frm mi old pals...is something wrong wit me?or izzit them?or izzit jz part n parcel of life n i haf to accept tt...i reali haf no clue...im still mi usual slack self in skul...im nt pickin miself up even tho its mi last semb..i haf a stupid report to submit tml n a stupid quiz for ib bt im nt even startin on it....i wonder if a bad new yr will mean the days ahead will nt go so well...i used to be a weak person bt ive matured to be stronger...wiser...bt nw...i seriously duno...i tink im turnin back to a weak person,onli in a diff way tis time...
Sunday, January 01, 2006 / 11:54 PM
NEW YR EVE SUCKED LIKE HELL...i didnt like the place...didnt like the crowd...drinks were so freakin expensive...i tink it wld haf been more worthy going somewhr else...or even jz chill at the beach...
they placed rnb for a freakin short time...most of it is live band...hw sucky tt is...i was treated as transparent most of the time....n i freakin cried...duno wats mi fuckin prob....i've neva cried for such a silly shit b4...actually i seldom cried in the past bt nw i've become a freakin emotional ass...
at 1.30,suddenly everyone disappeared except rai n me...went to shaz pit n played taiti...the music at the various pits r so much nicer...n even tho it was jz taiti,at least i had something to do...left ard 4 wit a couple of peeps who were goin hm...managed to get a cab pretty easily....
reached home,got nagged at...pretended tt i didnt hear anytink n went off to bed..luckily mi bro wasnt hm else it wld haf been worse..wanted to ton bt i was tryna b gd...aniwae i came hm late quite often tis mth..i was tryna b nice bt i didnt get bck in return...gr8....
