Saturday, December 16, 2006 / 3:01 AM
ive been kinda moody today...n in a confused state...n hungry...n sumtimes i tink i lack goal...im afraid i cant perf up to yuhua's expectations..i wana club..i cant wait fr the chalet..i haf sum fears in mi heart..nt gonna say it out tho..i n0e im makin u guys curious bt who cares..
i duno hw to solve tt $$ shit...fuck...i hate bein broke..i shldnt haf ordered sial...fuck...bt if buy outside ex seh..i tink my lifestyle is pretty unhealthy...nt in the way u guys assume bt in a diff way..i miss bein a kid...wat a nice life...i duno wat im upto....i duno wat i wan..i lack discipline, i lack independence, i lack courage and confidence...i lack determination...sumtimes i tink i dun behave the way i shld...okie fine, always...
i duno wat ppl r upto...fuckkkk....i noe i sound stressed...bt im nt...i was couple of wks bck bt its gone...i tink im plain lazy and useless..i lack empathy too at times...i badly nid sum courage...i dun dare to trust ppl...
i tink tt stupid mr yap is a hypocritical, 2 headed snake even tho i jz met him today....n its a veri strong feelin...yes rai, mi intuition is nt veri accurate...it loves to play punk wit me bt tis guy is nt in tt category...i noe im tokin like a crazy ass...a deranged bein...bt who cares...im jz bein me...okie...ciaoz....
Wednesday, December 13, 2006 / 2:56 AM
fuck sial...i jz rcvd tis bloody call n i accepted it...it turned out to be a stupid videocall and i was caught unaware....n they didnt ask me to allow mi image to be sent to the other party...it was auto sent...n i look like shit...im like wearing tis stupid dress wit mi hair bunned n me usin a stupid headband n its so crappy ar..i mean he shld noe im anti videocall or at least wen im at hm in mi horrible hm attire...i mean like fuck sial..so malu-ating...n i duno if he saw the stupid image...stupid idiot pig...i noe im overeactin...bt who wun....especially a vainpot like me...he prolly tinks im overeactin bt heck, i dun wan ani1 to see me wen i look such a fool...
Sunday, December 03, 2006 / 3:32 AM
finally gt a new skin..cos im bloody free nwadays...my new job will onli start in mid dec den 7th dec is mi moe induction..so nw shake leg..eat, sleep, go out, spend money, play comp, watch tv..ya, all these ova and ova again..n i jz coloured, cut and gt treatment fr mi hair today...cos mi old hair colour too obvious ar..n im bored and i haf too much time on my hands..too much time to tink...bloody crap..lots of sucky tinks haf been happenin to ppl ard me..its scary ar..
